.Saturday, November 20, 2010 ' 12:30 AM Y
;all the things i'll never say.

tgif, crazy like hell week but
i love every bit of it, which is odd. even the days when i had training.
people find it odd that i could possibly love standing at the same spot for hours
firing again and again,
but yeah i love it. i love it like how you would love cookie dough.
you eat too much and get sick of it but the next day
you still want some more.
baked together in the morning, and we wound up late for our own party, haha.
ran out of the house, flagged a taxi, and jumped out five minutes later,
ran some more to the function room, and blew balloons madly.
then flour flew.
if you ask me, the pre-party was smudgey bit more fun than the actual party,
as it usually is.
the baking and shopping and laughs.
reached home an hour before midnight and
i realised something and it kind of struck me like a ton of bricks.
except i didn't crumble like i once thought i would,
but smiled like an idiot
and that it scares me too,
haha.
because when you close your eyes to see the view,
you'll miss everything surrounding you,
but i won't
let it happen again.
am happy.
smiling so much inside it's making my head spin.
does anyone deserves to be this happy?